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  She followed his direction and leaned up on her elbows to watch him. “We didn’t bring anything back here.” She was a little confused, and it showed on her face. “And I know that I am going to enjoy this time with you, and I hope that every moment like this from here until forever will always be this intense and joyful.” She looked forward to having him touching her, having him love her.

  He shot her a confused look before he laughed softly. “Oh, my sweet little Alison, I have so much to teach you, honey. Lie back, relax, and just enjoy,” he said as he joined her on the bed. He settled on his side next to her, reaching out to run his fingers lightly down her sternum, and then circled her belly button before reversing the wandering journey.

  “You know that I’m not ticklish.” She watched him as he watched her and wanted to move, wanted to touch the erection that brushed against her thigh. She wanted to let her fingers dance up and down his hard cock, but didn’t think he would appreciate that too much. Before she could stop herself, however, she whispered, “Can I touch you? I want to feel you, all of you.”

  “Later,” he told her. “I promise. Right now is about you. I’m just learning you and your body, what you enjoy, and what thrills or turns you on. Besides, I’ve fantasized about stroking your skin for way, way too long, honey. I want to touch you, and later, after our first time together, if you can move, you can play to your heart’s content. Or until I throw you on your back and devour you again.” He slid his fingers up, and with one fingertip, circled her nipple.

  “I love how that sounds.” Alison bit her lower lip and gasped at his touch. Her back arched slightly and she lifted to meet his hand. “Oh, I like how that feels.” Her skin was peppered in gooseflesh, and a desire crawled through her unlike anything she had experienced before. She was desperate and needy. She wanted him. A great deal.

  “That’s good,” he told her gently. “If I do anything you’re not fully comfortable with, you have to say so. We can explore anything you want, together, Alison. We just need to know that we can always discuss anything and everything with one another openly.” Leaning in, he slid his tongue over the tight nipple he’d just been teasing, flicking it gently before sucking it into his mouth with long draws, pulling it deeper.

  Ali’s eyes were closed and her mouth released the moan she had felt building when his mouth closed over her taut nipple, his teeth teasing gently. “Oh God,” she breathed as she lifted her leg to rub it against his thigh. “You can do that, often please.” She whimpered and moved her hands to his head once more to hold him close.

  She felt more than heard his laugh. She also felt his hand roaming lower on her body. Still in lazy circles and slow strokes, but he was getting ever closer to her pussy. Every time he moved down, she tensed, and every time he withdrew, she felt disappointment and some mild frustration.

  Alison was gasping for air at Joshua’s teasing and then giggled. She couldn’t help herself. It bubbled out of her without her being able to contain it. “Joshua, you are killing me here. I’m so freaking desperate for you right now that all it will take is a good stiff wind and I will be coming while you will be just sitting back with a hard-on and no relief. No more teasing.” She wasn’t against begging at all. Not when it came to him.

  He lifted his head slowly, her nipple slipping from his mouth with a faint pop of sound, like a lollipop being pulled free. Joshua just smiled in that knowing way of his and tipped his head slightly. “Who says that you’ll only be having one orgasm tonight, honey?”

  She shuddered and licked her lips that suddenly went dry. She couldn’t speak. She just watched him intently and then she whispered, “Oh God you are going to kill me.” She reached down to touch his cheeks. “I couldn’t think of a better way to go either.”

  “Hold onto that thought,” he said in a warning tone. He shifted to press a kiss to her lips. As he teased her tongue, his hand slid down to cup her pussy, one finger sliding between her slick folds to rub at her clit.

  Alison lifted her ass off of the bed to meet his fingers as he toyed with her. She had her arms around his neck and was holding him close as she kissed him back. She moaned, unable to stop the sound from escaping her lips, and bit his lower lip. “Joshua.” She was moving of her own accord with his fingers, her body taking control and taking pleasure as he gave it to her.

  “That’s it, Alison,” he said, his tone a little breathless. “Just feel and enjoy.” He slipped one finger slowly into her pussy, stroking her gently with his work-roughened fingers. All the time he kept pressure on her clit as she rode his hand.

  She moved with him, the invasion of one and then more fingers into her spasming pussy only urging her on faster. She was desperate, she was ready to explode. Her nails raked his skin, his whiskered cheek brushed to her neck, and when his teeth grazed the dip of her shoulder where her neck and shoulder met, she was done for. She screamed his name, something she immediately blushed about, but it felt too damn good to not scream.

  His chuckle slowly brought her back to a semblance of reality. “I always knew you’d be a screamer,” he said, his tone teasing as he nuzzled her cheek. “God, Alison, you are so damned beautiful, and that orgasm…” Shaking his head, he said. “No words, honey, no words at all.”

  “So does that mean that we get to do more?” Her tone was hopeful even as her fingers traced his lips lovingly. “And please, God, tell me that your room is soundproof.” If not, their mamas would both soon be up there and banging on the door. Her mom would be calling Rhys, which would just not be good. At all. “I want more.” She felt achy, and empty, oddly enough. “I need you, Joshua. I want to see what you look like when you come and if you are a screamer as well.”

  “Soon, I promise,” he whispered gently. “I need to make sure your body is ready for me though, love. I’m going to slip another finger into your sexy little pussy, hopefully. Once you give me another orgasm then, and only then, will I give you my cock.”

  “I don’t think that I will survive two more before I have you inside of me.” Her confession rang true. “Don’t tease me. I don’t think that I can handle it.” Not teasing so much as pushing her body to its limits, although, that did hold merit. “I just need you loving me.” She noticed that he hadn’t answered the question about the soundproofing.

  “I’m not teasing you,” he said. Then, wrinkling up his nose, he said. “Okay, maybe I am teasing you a little bit, but it’s with a purpose. You’re a virgin, sweetheart, and a vibrator isn’t the same as a cock. Well, actually, not in most cases,” he muttered with a frown. “Totally beside the point. For now, just relax and feel. Another finger,” he said in warning before he slipped a second finger into her pussy slowly.

  She gripped his shoulders tightly. She arched slightly and bit her lower lip as he slid a second finger into her weeping pussy. “Oh God.” She hummed softly. When she felt good, she hummed, and she was feeling all kinds of good right now. “That feels so full, amazing.” She had her eyes closed, neck arched, and she began to move slowly on his fingers.

  “That’s right, Alison. Just go with whatever feels right and whatever feels good.” She felt him brush his lips to her cheek before they slid down to her neck. As he nuzzled her throat, he withdrew his fingers. “Third one,” he said in warning. Then the pressure on her body seemed to increase.

  She gripped his shoulders tighter. She opened her eyes and watched him. “That…” She paused, felt his thumb brush over her clit again, and whimpered. “That feels amazing.” She felt full, almost too full, but the touch of his thumb to her clit, his mouth to her shoulder—she was a goner.

  The nip of his teeth had her screaming again, but he didn’t let up on her. He thrust his fingers in and out of her slick pussy, while his thumb rubbed her clit until she thought she’d go mad. “Just so you know,” he said, his voice husky and rough. “The room is completely soundproofed. If it wasn’t, that scream would have brought the entire state running.”

  Alison laughed, her hum caught in the b
ack of her throat. “Thank God, because it would have brought Rhys, and that’s not how I want this night to go.” She looked up at him with desperate need. “Please,” she whispered, her fingers tracing over his cheek. “Nothing between us anymore. I want you. I need you. Make us whole?”

  He nodded and slowly drew his fingers from her body. Lifting them, he licked them clean, one at a time, taking his time to be diligent. “Tasty. Later, much later, I intend to lick you through a couple more orgasms. But right now, I’m so fucking hard for you I could drive nails through four-by-fours.”

  “Thank God.” She let her breath she had been holding out at his confession. “And I have to tell you.” She reached up and touched his lips. “That was so damn sexy to watch you licking your fingers like that. Goodness. Next time, I get to taste you too, though. For now, make love with me, dammit.”

  Chuckling, he brushed a kiss to her chin. “So impatient. Savor the moment, Alison. Lock this into your memory for when we’re too old to care about it anymore. I doubt that day will come, but you never know.” He slid over her, settling between her legs, his cock rubbing against her pussy. After he lifted her legs, propping them up and spreading them wide, he pressed his cock to her. “We’re going to go nice and slow. Any discomfort, say the word and we’ll pause to let it pass. Right?”

  “Sounds like a plan.” She let her fingers move from his lips to his chest. She stroked him gently and whispered. “And trust me, Joshua, this is not something that I am likely to ever forget. I’ve waited twenty-five years for you and this moment.”

  After adjusting himself slightly, he began to press his cock into her pussy. He was going slow, as he said he would, and his eyes were on hers. Whenever she tensed, he would still until she relaxed before slipping slowly deeper.

  She was panting. “So far so good.” She began to hum very softly once more, something that he knew far too well. “God that feels so good.” She moaned. “I feel so full and so right.” She hadn’t felt any pain, so she was very good with this loving thing. “I want more, though.” “Almost there,” he said. “I’m not fully inside of you, honey. Once I am, we’ll take a breath, and then the real fun and fireworks begin. With as quickly as you go off, I might even get two orgasms out of you this way. We’ll see,” Brushing a kiss to her lips, he pressed deeper and deeper until his hips were pressed tightly to hers.

  She snickered and then gasped when he was fully inside of her. She didn’t say anything, but she did moan after she felt her body relaxing. “Oh, Joshua,” she whispered in desperation and need. “That feels so very amazing.” She whimpered. Her legs moved to wrap around his thighs and pull him closer. She was hungry and needy for him to move.

  “Yes, you do,” he said with an answering moan. He slid out of her slowly and then thrust in deep. His eyes were heavy-lidded, but he was still watching her, likely catching each and every one of her reactions. He moved slowly at first, letting her adjust and find her own rhythm. Soon enough, though, he picked up the pace.

  When he started to move faster and harder inside of her body, Alison was gasping, her hands gripping his shoulders tightly, and she moved with him and felt the intensity of their joining all the way to the bottom of her soul. She moaned, her eyes closed for a brief moment as she tossed her head back and shivered. “Joshua.” His name came out softly, a gasp from her, until she looked back at him once more, not willing to miss a single moment of this joining.

  He had a look of absolute concentration with a bit of strain on his face. He was completely focused on her as he slammed his cock into her pussy again and again. Reaching down, as he shifted his weight to one arm, he lifted her leg up higher on his waist, which changed the angle his cock was hitting deep inside of her.

  “Oh God.” She moaned as her hands tightened on his shoulders. “There, yes.” Once more, she began that hum. “Josh.” She gasped his name, her eyes wide and legs tightening on his hips. “Oh God.” She cried out once more, a lot louder this time.

  “That’s it, just feel and let go,” he said to her. He was gritting his teeth. She could see it on his face and hear it in his voice. “Come for me, Alison. Scream as you come for me, baby,” he demanded, thrusting harder still.

  Alison could deny him nothing, never had been able to. With her hands on his shoulders, she pulled him as close as he would let her and allowed her nails to bite into his shoulders roughly. She whimpered once again, and then when he slammed hard and balls deep into her, she screamed again. She saw stars this time. Her whole body seemed to quiver with her release and she shuddered as she begged Josh for his.

  He managed two more very jerky thrusts before his back arched. He yelled her name as he came, his semen a hot splash inside of her body. With a shudder, he seemed to collapse a few moments later, falling over her as he buried his face in her neck. Slowly, he shifted to slide his arms around her, his chest moving hard and fast against her own as they fought for air.

  She came back to herself as he pulled her close. She was shaking, her arms wrapped tightly around his neck, and she held onto him for all she was worth. “I’m never letting you go,” she whispered finally. “I’m going to make you keep me forever, Joshua.” Forever wouldn’t be long enough, at least not in her opinion.

  He let out a breathless chuckle and somehow got them onto their sides. “Deal,” he said quietly. “Because I really am not going to let you go. Forever is a good start, though.” Pressing a gentle kiss to her lips, he rubbed a hand slowly up and down her back.

  She yawned and rubbed her cheek to his chest. She whispered, “That means that you have to figure out how to talk Rhys into letting you keep me forever, you know. Especially in light of all that’s going on.” She went sober, fear crawling through her again. “I hate that I’m coming to you with trouble on my tail, Josh.”

  “Oh, shut it,” he muttered. He loosened his hold and wiggled around with a couple of grunts before flipping the blankets up over them. Relaxing back, he blew out a breath and looked at her. “Honey, I’m just glad I am here for you. You should not be alone during this. I know you. If you thought you could have, you would have kept it all secret as long as possible.”

  She moved so that she was curled into his side. She missed the feeling of him inside of her, but knew that it was all a part of the process. “I’m happy that you are here for me too and yes, you are right. Honestly, if you hadn’t been in the diner, I wouldn’t have told anyone. I likely would have never told anyone. I would have left town so that the mess would have followed me and left those I loved alone.” She hated to be blunt, but it was true. It was who she was and he knew it. “But you were there, and you are never letting me go, so I hope that you are going to be good with that.”

  “Alison, honey, I dare this asshole to try anything,” he said, hugging her closer. “Especially since your brother’s now aware. You have to remember, he’s still got a couple of his friends hanging around. Do you honestly think that they are all currently sitting around, drinking beers, and watching a game on the TV?”

  “I have no idea what they are doing.” Alison shrugged and let her fingers trace little lines across his chest. “I just don’t want this hurting our moms or you. I can’t have you hurt, Josh. It would kill me if you were hurt. I sat at your side for days when you were hurt ten years ago and then earlier than that when you were doing the rodeo circuit and bull riding. Remember when you were in Vegas and you’d been hurt by that bull? I flew out without anyone knowing and I was there until you woke up. Of course everyone knew once your parents walked into your hospital room, and I shocked your mom since I was already there.”

  “I know,” he said softly. At her jolt, he moved slowly. “Honey, I always know when you’re close. I knew you were there. That and the fact Mama told me you’d been there, confirming it wasn’t the drugs fueling my delusions. I wished you’d been able to stay longer. I liked having you there next to me. Not because I was hurt, and definitely not with the whole hospital thing, but because you are always such a
comfort to me. You make everything better is what I’m trying to say in my own very inelegant manner.”

  That had her reaching for him and she moved so that she could kiss him. “I love you too, Joshua Carver.” She brushed her nose against his. “And I’m here now. I’m here for the rest of our lives. You have me and I’m going to be impossible to be rid of. However, for my own sanity, can we please not have another hospital stay?”

  “Well, I’m kind of a klutz, so it’s possible that I may end up there once or twice more. But I swear to you that I will try not to do anything too damaging where I have to stay overnight. Pretty much the best I can do. You know my luck, it’s kind of crappy for the most part. Except for you. I’m so damn lucky to have the prettiest, sexiest, and most amazing woman to love, who loves me back.”

  Alison lay her head back against his chest and she let out a puff of breath. “Well please try not to be a klutz? I really don’t do hospitals well, and blood is even worse. You know that. I’m happy. You are happy. One day, our moms might be happy with us being together,” she teased, her grin wide against his chest. “And I don’t think that anything makes Rhys happy except for Gwennie, so I say that we live life for each other and you try your hardest not to get hurt.”

  “Deal,” he said with a chuckle. “Do you actually call her Gwennie? In front of Rhys, I mean? Cause, I know for a fact her name’s just Gwen and Rhys tried several nicknames with her that didn’t end well for him.”

  She snickered. “No, not around him, but don’t tell him that we all call her that. Her sister and I have called her that from, well, forever.” She thought about Gennifer and frowned. “You know, I haven’t heard from her, Genny that is, for like two months. That’s not usual for her. At all.”

  “What’s she been up to anyway?” he asked. “Hell, I haven’t seen her in, God, it must be an easy two years. Except for brief glimpses of her as she blasted past, I haven’t laid eyes on her in forever.”